For many years I wanted to travel. Firstly, I was thinking about New Zealand for a long time. I was completely charmed by the local breathtaking nature. In addition to pristine nature I also wanted adventure and all the experiences that you get on this kind of trip. However, in spite of all travel attractions, another key part was missing. Back then, the very nature and adventure were not sufficient reasons to decide to travel.
In the autumn of 2012, I noticed online that the author of my popular book “The Disappearance of the Universe” will have a 5 day workshop in Hawaii on the topic of this book. Book offers a simple yet profound interpretation of A Course of Miracles, which is a self-study spiritual thought system, which I love and immediately felt that it was for me. And because I didn’t know anybody in Slovenia who would know and study A Course of Miracles, I knew that I would find there a perfect opportunity to meet like-minded people. So I instantly knew: This is it – I got the missing piece of the puzzle! And on top of everything – I will go to Hawaii! OMG! 🙂
But before we go on a trip, a few words about A Course of Miracles, that inspires me and through it’s teachings, gives meaning to my life.
A Course in Miracles is a complete self-study spiritual thought system. As a three-volume curriculum consisting of a Text, Workbook for Students, and Manual for Teachers, it teaches that the way to universal love and peace—or remembering God—is by undoing guilt through forgiving others. The Course thus focuses on the healing of relationships and making them holy. A Course in Miracles also emphasizes that it is but one version of the universal curriculum, of which there are “many thousands.” Consequently, even though the language of the Course is that of traditional Christianity, it expresses a non-sectarian, non-denominational spirituality. A Course in Miracles therefore is a universal spiritual teaching, not a religion. – acim.org, An Introduction
Course of Miracles was “scribed” through a process of internal dictation, which lasted about 7 years. Received by the American professor of clinical psychology, Helen Schucman. She described herself as a psychologist, educator, conservative in theory and atheistic the belief who was working in a prestigious and highly academic setting.
What A Course in Miracles says
[..] The world we see merely reflects our own internal frame of reference—the dominant ideas, wishes and emotions in our minds. “Projection makes perception” (Text, p. 445). We look inside first, decide the kind of world we want to see and then project that world outside, making it the truth as we see it. We make it true by our interpretations of what it is we are seeing. If we are using perception to justify our own mistakes—our anger, our impulses to attack, our lack of love in whatever form it may take—we will see a world of evil, destruction, malice, envy and despair. [..] – A Course in Miracles: What It Says
It should also be mention that as an extensions to the principles of A Course in Miracles, a short booklet entitled: “Psychotherapy – the purpose, process and practice”, come out. It is my main compass on my way of becoming a psychotherapist. One of the main emphases seems to me that the therapist himself does not see as ”more important”, compared with a client, but that they are identical in the mutual process in healing the mind or to distinguish between illusion and truth.
So much about A Course in Miracles. Now let’s go to Hawaii! 🙂
The adventure took place in summer 2013. Alone, a trip to Hawaii was unprecedented experience for me, because I have long wanted a longer trip by air. I am a big fan of aircrafts and flying in general. Sometimes I fly with a paraglider. A special feeling of freedom takes you over among birds.
My travel plan to Hawaii: Ljubljana (Slovenia) > Trieste (Italy) > Munich (Germany) > New York > Los Angeles > Hawaii (Big Island). All together more than 20 hours of flight time in one direction.
This was my first solo trip. There was some fear present before it: “Will I know how to navigate through the biggest airports of the world? Will I catch my next plane, or will I be stuck in a huge crowded place?” And finally, just before the beginning of the trip a fear of traveling by myself appeared: “What if something happens to you?”
All these fears and concerns began to fade away during the journey. I let myself go and started to enjoy it. Even a delayed flight from Munich to New York and consequently a night spent in a New York hotel was a real enrichment!
After almost three days I arrived in Hawaii. OMG, Hawaii!! Already at the airport I was welcomed by Hawaiian music and warm evening atmosphere. I was greeted by one of the volunteers from ‘Exotic’ hostel (Hedonisia Hawaii Community Eco-Hostel) in the middle of the tropical rainforest where I started my Hawaiian experience. My accommodation was a disused school bus, renovated to a simple “apartment” with a bed and a desk in the middle of Hawaiian jungle. The first night, marked by rain, passed with loud sounds of the jungle, but it had a very soothing effect on me. I felt asleep in a moment.
I spent the next two days in this quiet hostel permeated with unspoilt nature, where everything is out in the open air, including a kitchen, bathroom and toilet – with a direct view of the rich Hawaiian flora. And not to mention fresh avocados, which you could pluck from the tree.
My main part of the journey has started on the third day, when I moved to Kalani – a big resort center, where the idyllic Hawaii nature was fully exposed. My first steps at the center was accompanied with open mouth and a constant repetition of the words OMG and the immense gratitude that I have the opportunity to experience all this.
The centre operates as a nonprofit educational organization, which is based on volunteers. It is possible to learn various yoga techniques and meditations, live in the community, learn about Hawaiian Culture, attend various workshops and a lot more. One of the workshops was also the main “culprit” that I decided to go on this trip. I have not decided for it so much because of the new knowledge I will get (although I got it), but rather because I felt that I will met interesting and pleasant people. I was not wrong. In their company, I soon felt more at home than at my real home. Feelings like acceptance, kindness, closeness and love got a whole new dimension.
Five days of workshop quickly passed. In addition to morning and afternoon thematic discussions on the topic of A Course of Miracles, we had the option of a guided tour to some parts of the island or simply left to enjoy by the pool. We also received excellent food which is mainly locally produced and prepared in a special way.
After the 5 day workshop, unexpectedly, my big wish to swim with dolphins came true. I went to the other part of the island – Kona – with my two new friends, where we enjoyed their playfulness, while they swam centimeters away from us. I often remember their playfulness, spontaneity and tenderness – especially in those moments when life brings you challenges. They symbolically remind me that everything is okay and that I don’t need to worry about anything.
Farewell to friends, especially with some with whom we are more connected, was quite emotional for me. The feeling that someone that you love is leaving you, just felt awful. And although I knew with one part of myself that this is just feeling – that in truth, in its essence, nobody can ever leave you.
After the workshop was completed, I stayed in the centre for another week. I met other nice people, their diversity, although in the basis we were all equal – one with each other.
Otherwise, the time in Hawaii was not accompanied with only pleasant feelings. Feelings of loneliness and sadness crept to the surface of the mind several times. At such moments I thought came to my mind, that wherever you go – and even if it is the most beautiful place on earth – you can not escape your problems. You bring your ‘inner world’ wherever you go. The world you see (perceive) is only an outside picture of an inward condition. So I came to one more aspect – reason for travel, the more hidden reason, that I did not mention at the beginning.
Travelling can also be an escape (often very unnoticeable) from the problems which you are facing at home. If I am honest with myself, I could also notice that in one part this was to “blame” for the trip. So I have spent quite a few times contemplating on this in meditation and raising my awareness.
However, I am very happy that I chose this trip because it gave me a lot of new insights, knowledge, valuable experiences and above all, make new friends, to whom I am grateful from the bottom of my heart.